like sands though the hour glass

oh….why yes….that is indeed a new header up above. It only took me a mere 5 months ….

It’s hard to believe we’ve been here for just over five months.

This week i’ve been feeling really good…..and it might just be the fact that my kids went back to school

yesterday after being home for three whole weeks.

For the first time …..the kids being home for those three weeks…..wasn’t as bad as i had imagined it.

It’s because we are in Kauai. it’s because selling wine out of a box is legal.

No one has been sick yet…..and i credit the weather and the lack of germs making their way around a stuffy

classroom with no ventilation. The kids classes here are open and the germs seem to fly  out and away…

and right back to the airport;-)

Since bryan is home most morning and doesn’t have to be to  work till after 10…he is the one that normally takes

the kids to school then he heads over and checks out the surf.

This morning i took the kids to school….and headed over to my friends house because she has a scale….

and since i haven’t bought a scale yet …..because they are evil….

and i know for a fact that those little monsters called calories sneak into my room in the middle of the night

and they sew my clothes tighter.

Did you know that you should never wash jeans?

you can wash shirts…..

you can wash socks….

but never….never wash jeans.

I stepped on the scale this morning and i’m down 4 whole pounds.

What i wanted was one of those biggest loser moments ..you know the one…..

where they step on the scale and they’ve lost 16 pounds and you think to yourself….

amazing.

Nope….that didn’t happen this morning.

I stepped on the scale and it said….

###.2

and because of the point .2 i thought that was in my right to go ahead and round down to the lower number.

{i’m allowed to…..i looked it up and it it’s says .2 or even .4 that you  can round down…}

There were no cheers….there was no high fiving or hugs going around…..just me and the scale…..

the battle of the number.

This is week 8 of my training with Gabby.

I feel great…..i’m stronger….and i noticed my arms are looking better as my waist line is slowly shrinking…

{even though i wasn’t able to do the three minute hand stands in class yesterday….yes..you read that right….

hand stands….}

but i wanted that biggest loser moment.

It is such hard work…..but i found a saying and it said:

“It takes 4 weeks for you to notice your body changing…

8 weeks for your friends to start noticing….

and 12 weeks for the world”

I’m at week 8.

4 more to go world…..4 more to go.

Stress is not my friend….

it’s my inhibitor and stress is what’s been in our lives the last 8 months.

Everyone always asks us…..what are we going to do next….where are we going to go.

We still have our house back home…..and home to us is Illinois….but right now….

Bryan has a decent job….even if it’s serving food and drinks.

{and the occasional meeting a celebrity…which in my book….is a great job}

He has a job….we have benefits….we have a roof over our heads….and the kids have adjusted better

than i could have ever expected.

They are happy…..healthy…..and thriving.

We are making it work.

The goal was that come March or April that he would start looking again….for a job…and i hate to even say

a “real” job…because damn….if this isn’t as real as you get…

a 40 year old man with a wife and three kids working as a server….if that’s not real…what the heck!

 This is such a different kind of hard for Bryan. He thought his old desk job was hard….but

when you are on your feet all day….in the sun….it’s a new type of hard.


It’s hard not to let stress in…..

we had this whole vision of living this year without the worries….

and just living life.

But it’s always there….in the back of our minds and thoughts.

The what if….the unknown….the i hope we can make it.

The… i hope we didn’t screw up our kids….because we wanted to live a different type of life for one whole year.

It’s because we have to make the best decision for our family ….our children….and luckily for us….

our children are well rounded….kind hearted….and have the same passion for living life that we do.

{My kids will probably be the ones that get married and never move…ever ever ever again}

Like sands through the hourglass…these are the days of our lives

errrr….

sorry…..the tele is on in the background and it’s obvious that one of my soaps is on….

So…anyhoo…

As of right now…

today…

there are so many  uncertainties about our future….and we want to know what is going to happen next…but we don’t.

We are in this corner…..a pretty fabulous corner if i might add….waiting and waiting…

but i do know something….we have each other…and that’s all that matters.

{and a box of wine …you know…to even things out}

Comments

  1. I am humbled by your words. I always in the past came here to your blog to find some kind of laughter or a smile. But just found my heart humbled. I understand hard and scary when life throws a change in that one would never expect and to just allow it to beautifully unfold as it always does. The valleys make us beautiful and our hearts full of good kind of character. It can also cause a family to look at each other and say, hey no matter what sink or swim we are going to swim and find that you have championed one another for the walk of life and to smile in the smallest of things that should matter. To me you are wonderful and life is going to turn out just fine. Praying it so!

  2. I love that you did this for your kids. I think the world is too big to be in one place. I would love to one day pack up what we can and sell the rest and just move to somewhere beautiful. Where the people are kind hearted and the weather is beautiful!

    Your kids will look back at this chapter of their life and it will have changed them!

    I’m so jealous of you Kasey! One day I will follow in your footsteps!

    I would move there and never look back!

  3. Love the new header and I’ve always loved your outlook on this experience and life in general!

  4. I think you have given your children an amazing gift~

  5. It’s good to just talk it out. I would say pray about it, but I don’t want to come off preachy. Regardless of where you ultimately end up you’ve done an incredible thing. You embraced change and had an adventure in paradise. Your kids will be fine. Keep going with the boot camp. It will be worth it.

  6. I moved A TON as
    a kid and while each
    move was difficult at
    first, in the end we were
    closer, more well-rounded
    citizens of the world
    for the experiences.
    And, you can put us in
    a room filled with a bunch
    of strangers and we will
    leave it with at least one
    friend!

    Enjoy the ride.

  7. love the new header ~ love the 4 pounds! and I’ll hate the scale with you.

  8. You and Bryan are amazing ~ you are giving your kids (and you too!) memories that most people just dream of. What an incredible gift!

    I am new to your blog, I think I ran across your name on Jones Design Company. I have just read through all your posts back to September ~ Wow!! I haven’t laughed that hard in quite some time ~ thanks!

    I raise my glass of fancy boxed wine to you ~ Cheers!

  9. Kasey, I love this post. Happy New Year 🙂

  10. This also makes me want to change my header. It looks fabulous.

  11. When I was in 6th grade, my parents took and plunge and we lived in England for 1 year. Looking back it was the best year of my little life. The whole world opened up to me. I understood things outside mainland USA. It was great! Here’s hoping it’s the same for you and yours!!

  12. Your header looks great! I am so happy your family is enjoying Hawaii. You are giving your kids something that most kids will never experience in their lives and that in itself is amazing!! What cool parents to have!!!
    Happy New Year!

  13. Love, love, love the new header!! You guys did an amazing thing by following your dreams of living in Hawaii for a year…if it’s working, I’d plan to stay another year…why not?? One of these days I’ll pack up and move to an island, but in the meantime, I’ve slowly been inching my way south….I went from the Chicago suburbs to Columbus, OH to Orlando, FL all in the past 2 years. I’ve never been to Hawaii, but I’m sure I’d want to stay if I went. I’ve visited the U.S. Virgin Islands many times and that has always been my island of choice….St. Thomas, in particular! 🙂

  14. i am loving watching your dreams unfold sweet girl, even if there is so much unknown!
    what an adventure, what an amazing lifetime full of memories.
    & your kids are seeing how brave & fearless ya’ll are
    xoxo

  15. I can’t help but comment on the Days reference. I love Days of our Lives, I’ve been watching since I was five! I also think it rocks what your doing. Keep up the positive thoughts and outlook and all will be well. I am a newer follower of yours, please feel free to come my way too.
    Beth:-) kokopelia.blogspot.com

  16. I don’t know you personally but I adore you and am greatful to be along for the ride, you guys are so blessed to have each other ! Thanks for sharing your heart with us!

  17. Together is the best place to be. Whatever comes your way, doing it together you guys will weather through anything!

  18. Hello Kasey. First I want to say that I love your blog and the general vibe that you put out into the world. I am a 29 year old woman with no kids, so I cannot fully appreciate the stresses you are under but I do work in the film industry where we work film to film and there is always constant worry that you will not find another job – but you always do. My husband (who also works in film) and I will find ourselves stressing about the next project – the what ifs and the whens – and then we just have to stop and say, “Okay…we are fine right now. We have been fine in the past and we will be fine in the future.” Someone once said to me, “When you are unsure of what to do, just don’t do anything, and the answer will come to you when it is needed,” and I think this is really true. You have a beautiful family and I think teaching your kids to be people of the world and respect adventure is a beautiful gift. Hang in there.

  19. First off, love, love the new header. It’s beyond gorgeous! Just learning some photoshop with PSE10 which I got for Christmas, so totally am intrigued with the beauty you’ve come up with. Gorgeous!
    What an exciting and amazing journey your family is on…and what a beautiful place to spend it. I hope that you find peace in your year in paradise.
    Gretchen~

  20. KASEY,
    this kind of reminds me of an event in our family a few years ago. My brother wanted to provide for his wife and 4 small kids, so he took a second job on the weekends as a server at a big restaurant. An old high school “friend” came in to the restaurant in his nice car and suit. My brother was the bus boy. AT 34 i am sure this was hard to do. He said he actually liked the job and he worked with our sister there. The guy looked down his nose at my brother and insinuated that he was doing “really well”and too bad my brother was a bus boy. My brother didn’t bother to explain he had a real job during the week, but he did humbly say he was working extra to provide for his family that he loved so much. HIs “friend” seemed to be humbled himself bythis, he admitted he was going thru his second divorce and wished he had tried harder to make his family happy besdies working all the time to make alot of money. So…if your husband is serving, or working in any way to provide for this AWESOME opportunity for all of you, man be PROUD. LIVe it! life is so short and can be so good. You’ve got it good. You are IN HAWAII !! and living there, healthy, happy and young. enjoy it! enjoy it!

  21. Love the new header! Thank you for sharing your happy memory making. Life is good. Hugs!

  22. Sounds like you’ve got it figured out, girlie – even if you don’t think you do. You’re a brave one!

  23. Barbara N says:

    Love the header, -4 pounds is fantastic!

  24. hi kasey. oh how i enjoy reading about your adventures. they bring back wonderful memories for me. i have had many adventures too. we have 6 children – we are from michigan but have lived in tulsa, dallas, new jersey, england (for three wonderful years) and we are back in michigan now. i will never forget any of the places we lived, and all the fun and new (sometimes scary) beginnings and ending of lifetime memories that we made in each place. the people we met and are still in contact with – and the things that my children got to experience that many of their friends have no idea are out there in the world. you will never regret your move or moves…. it will make your children well rounded and open minded to change. i was so worried that i was going to ruin my kids by uprooting them, but in fact they will tell you that they loved each and every experience they had – especially living in england!!!! they are outgoing, independent and secure! you will see, this is something your kids will never forget, the memories you are making now are priceless. i love your passion for life – you are living girl – really living!!! and i am reliving my adventures through you!!! a bit jealous i am too 🙂

  25. I admire you.

  26. Don’t know how I found your blog, however it was soon after you moved to Hawaii. Never posted before.

    Here’s hoping your family can have peace in your decisions..and please know that what you and your husband do each day takes SO much courage.

    Thank you for sharing your journey!

  27. God Bless you all, Kasey!

    : )

    Julie M.

  28. I hear you on the weight loss. I am doing Brazil Butt Lift and while pants are looser the scale hasn’t budged. The stress of a dad with Alzheimer’s//dementia and life seems to keep my pounds in place. I love seeing your family doing so well. I think you are very brave. I have lived in the same town forever except for the college years. I love small town life but think you deserve some real cred for taking that risk. Your kids look happy and well. Best wishes to you. I read you all the time. You make me laugh but I don’t always leave a comment. Keep blogging…I love the gab. Hey by the way central IL is 65 degrees today!!

  29. You all are doing a great job! Family is what it is truly all about, right? The “desert” or “island” as it may be, just strengthens and brings your family so much closer. Those memories will bind them together even as adults. We weren’t in the “desert” last year, but seriously considered moving to Hawaii anyway. My hubby and I spent 6 weeks there as newlyweds while he worked at the hospital on Oahu. It wasn’t meant to be last year 🙁 We have had one of our toughest years as a family – but have blossomed as a family through these tough times. I look for that escape – but as you point out – no matter where you are you can’t escape life. Thanks for sharing the hard parts along with the laughter. Keep doing what you are doing because it is working!!

  30. As i wrote to you before about the situation with my husband and I. We too from Il.My husband from the Lombard area me from that little city of 16000(only 1 walmart ). Woo Hoo Not exciting at all. My husband packed up his law office and we moved her to AZ. I told him your story. We can relate.He is working in a insurance company, Big change to having your own office and working on your own to having to be on time.Ted sometimes takes his time getting to his appt. I guess thats common for lawyers he he. It has moments and gets frustrating at times we ask ourselves if we made the right choice ??? We weight things out .More the most part we did. Your story has been inspiring and you always put a smile on our face.Job changes are in the works too for my husband Ted. I too have been lucky I stay home .Yeah . I have a day or 2 that I sit by our pool. I have a 17 yr that is finishing high school back in Il. Very hard.I miss him everyday.He flys out on his breaks. He too reads up on you. He relates to your stories too. Enjoy what you have. Your husband has a real job. He is a good husband. You and your family will do well. Have a beautiful weekend. I hope the sun stays out all weekend,I think a nice cold margarita by our pool sounds pretty tasty. If you lived closer I would invite you over….Chickie

  31. virtual high five! 4 pounds is 4 pounds and worth celebrating! I have been trying to drop about 7 pounds and it is the hardest thing in the world! So cheers to you!

    As Lola gets older I see her looking more like you…especially in the face! She is growing up to be a beautiful girl! And her friend kind of makes me want to get feathers in my hair. How cute is she!

    I think what you are doing is great, like I have said before. And when it is the time to move on to something else, you will know. Embrace the now and enjoy this beautiful season you have been gifted!

  32. everyone was like, love the new header! I couldn’t see it! I refreshed the page and there it is! Absolutely stunning!

  33. Shar Yates says:

    i love your blog and I love what you and your family have done. funny, but until this post, i didn’t realize the stress you have been under. your posts have been so uplifting and exciting and funny. so, even with the stress, you must be handling it well because I have picked up nothing but optimism in it all. have you thought about professional writing? you have a way of telling a story. why not contact one of the newspapers and write a column on your adventure? or a book? (not everyone is a blog reader and they do not know what they are missing? I think you have great talent and could go somewhere with that.

    and, yay to the 4 pounds!

  34. I think you all have done a wonderful job with the hand you’ve been dealt in this season of life! I pray the Lord gives you peace…no more stress…I found several verses I wanted to share with you…I try to go to the Word when I’m stressed or feeling anxious or when my friends are…so…here you go…I hope these bring you comfort & peace 🙂

    But now thus says the LORD, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you. ~ Isaiah 43:1-3 (One of my FAVES!)

    Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. ~Psalm 55:22

    When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. Psalm 56:3

    I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth. ~Psalm 121:1-2

    Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

    “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? ~Matthew 6:25-27

    “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. ~ Matthew 6:34

    Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” ~ Matthew 11:28-30

    What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? ~Romans 8:31 🙂

    do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:6-7

    casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. ~ 1Peter 5:7

    Hope these help….& WAY to go on the 4 L-B’s!

  35. I found your blog through pintrest, I think and when I read about what you and your family are doing, I got so excited! It is a dream of my husband and I to move with our family of 6 somewhere completely different for a year. He’s a sking junkie, so he wants to work on a ski slope and I say if I have to suffer through a cold snowy winter on a mountain somewhere, then we’re going to have to do 2 years cause I want to live somewhere warm – Hawaii sounds wonderful to me. What could be a better childhood than experiencing new things and places – talk about well-rounded. You only live life once so you might as well go for it – who cares about a big house, new van, blah, blah. While I can appreciate the stress of not knowing -( husband just went through a job transition and all the worries and cash flow problems that go along with that) just go with it. Much harder to so do than say, right?

  36. Family matters 😉 As long as you have each other, and a little bit of faith, you can handle anything. Wishing you a happy 2012!

  37. P.S. The new header is beyound beautiful…love it!!

  38. Oops…I mean, beyond 😉

  39. I see someone has already quoted Matthew 6:25-27. I think you have done such a courageous thing for you and your family. You have shown your faith. Happy 2012!

  40. no, stress is no friend. stress and worry do not come from God. when God says do not worry, it is a command. i try to remember this. thanks to alecia for all the bible references. no one knows for sure what the future holds. any one of us could be out on the street tomorrow. it is by the grace of God we are not. Enjoy enjoy enjoy! and be thankful! that is my plan too. surf’s up!

  41. Wow! You have done such a fantastic thing by moving somewhere for a year. You have given your kids a ton of memories which they will have for their whole lives. Yes, it is tough on the adults because you can’t help thinking ahead. But I am so impressed by what you have done and achieved so far. Well done!

  42. Take it from me {a recent moved back to the States after living on an island in the Indian Ocean for a year kind of gal}…life is still there back in Illinois when you guys are ready to go home. You will be amazed at how everything is just the same. Sure Borders might have closed down, but your friends will still be bitching about the same old things and your house will still be there waiting. And while nothing much will be different, you will have changed. And you will be so thankful you are different and that you did something hard and amazing and scary and beautiful. And you will be so thankful that your kids will have seen another way of life, in a most spectacular setting. Just wanted to tell you that.

  43. Loved this post! You are amazing Kasey. I love your spontaneity. I’m way to anal to fly by the seat of my pants….you know that about me. So, I will just admire you from afar. I’m so happy you have all adjusted well. You deserve the best:)

  44. Hi Kasey, I just found your blog through a feature (…I’ve already forgotten which blog!! sorry!) on your gallery wall. Gorgeous. So glad I found you. I always count the .2 when I weigh in too. 😉 it’s something! Looking forward to more of your posts.

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